The
world is no excuse for who and what and the way I am. The man I was born
to be, the man I wanted to be, the man I could have been, the man I
ended up being, the man I am, the man I still want to be, the man I
would perhaps end up being, and the man I should be but won't be: in all
this , there is no place for the man I was forced to become. (In the
end, I could be forced to become only what I didn't
have the courage or strength to resist:the world is no excuse for who
and what I am.) I lack the courage to measure the damage surroundings
inflicted on me with the damage I inflicted on surroundings and the
damage I might have inflicted on myself. I know I will lose the argument
there. Like Oscar Wilde, I know I was and often am punished for the
sins I never committed, but then, I also know that there far more
serious sins I committed and have never been punished for. I accept the
package, fro refusing it would mean certain loss.
For whatever and whoever I am , I take responsibility. That is the first step on the journey to be what I still want to be.
For whatever and whoever I am , I take responsibility. That is the first step on the journey to be what I still want to be.
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