Sunday, April 1, 2012

To Karminder Singh Aulakh

To Karminder Singh Aulakh: ref his comment in Siyasat : I guess this has been hanging out there between us for some time. Let me try and see if I can remove it. No, to be fair and honest, you have NEVER used such disrespectful terms for me .. NEVER. On the contrary, You have often used courteous and even kind words for me, trying at the same time to set me apart from the people whom you obviously don't like -- and I have always shown sympathy and understanding towards the reason for anger your against them. It will be clear to any impartial observer that you and I hold each other in high esteem as persons, and I am grateful to you for that. After all, it is not easy for anyone to praise someone in the enemy's camp, no matter how nice that someone might be. It is to your abiding credit that you have always shown that magnanimity and kindness towards me.

And yet that haze of a misunderstanding seems to hang between us. I would sincerely hope that it is not because of any harsh used for you by me.

My comment about "you thieves, you liars" etc. was not about the language you use for me, for if I ever accused you of that, that would be a blasphemy , considering that you have always been most gracious towards me personally -- and I have never failed to notice and acknowledge that.

But some bad vibes do swing between us when you use words such as " I wonder how your conscience allows you to...." etc etc. To any discerning reader, this would sound as a severe indictment of the other's lack of conscientiousness . May be, you don't really mean it this way. But that unforunately is the impression such words would always leave, and that would bring some amount of unpleasant feeling in its trail.

You want to know what I really think of you as a person? This exactly is what: 

"An extremely honest and well meaning person, a man of unimpeachable integrity and proud of it. A person whose self esteem is rooted in his respect for values which he holds dear and is willing to wage a battle for at considerable risk to his own well being. A soldier of truth and righteousness -- incorruptible to the core, and very very courageous."
This would roughly be a definition of a human being whom I could proudly adore as an icon.

From all the honest men and women I know to be honest to the core and proud of their integrity, if I had to choose but a dozen to walk with me down an Aisle of Honour, I have no doubt that you would be there walking right in front there with me. 

That said, there are a few things I am uncomfortable with, but none of that reduces my respect for you as a person fiercely proud of his truthfulness and integrity. 

I wish I could learn to be comfortable with the ferocity of the passion that comes across in your dislikes.

All in all, I rate you far higher than many of my own admirers would rate me. And my earlier apologies to you had come from the core of my heart. So does my admiration for you. ..And so also do a few of the reservations I have about the way you make me feel the heat of your anger.

I see a lot of sparkle in your eye. What saddens me sometimes is the presence of a streak of blood in the same eye. As they say, when eyes are bloodshot, vision is a casualty.

And I mean all of it as a brother.

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